It was a very tough day today. I know that he is only six years old, bu the says so many hurtful things. And the way he is acting when he doesn’t get his will through… It’s hard and today was the first day I was seriously wondering what I am doing here…  I don’t want to go home to Sweden, but I don’t want to spend so many hours every day with an energy thief. And it gets worse… I try to be in a good mood because I know that he is only six and stubborn as hell. But today I just couldn’t handle it! I got reallys ad when I tried to explain to him how all of this feels to me, leaving my home and comfort for him and his sister, leaving friends and family so I could get some new experiences. But of course he doesn’t understand. The girl followed me downstairs and started crying and said that she didn’t want me to leave them.

I won’t, but I have to talk about this with the parents because this can’t go on any longer.

The evening was better though. The boy had ”forgotten” about earlier and we had a nice pillow fight. When he said goodnight he gave me extra many hugs and was so adorable. Why isn’t he always like that?

No school for the kids today meant long day of work for me. But it was a really nice day! I had the morning alone with the boy since the girl was at a friends house doing an invention thing for school. And we played Wii, doing a little homework, eat warm sandwiches and had a fun time together, not like the other mornings. I loved it! In the middle of lunch the girl came home and we continued playing Super Mario Bros on the Wii. It’s a little different doing it with a ten,- and six-year old instead of the good old days… But I still love the game. And I actually think I will start my own game and try to complete it all with 3 big coins. I’m seriously thinking (again!) about buying a Wii of my own when I get back to Sweden and buy all of the Super Mario games. Those are the ones I love the most!

We also watched a movie in the afternoon called Mirror Mirror. Didn’t see much of it because I was so tired after just three hours of sleep last night. My shoulder decided to hurt like hell so I was writhering in pain all night. I hate when that happens with different body parts…

I didn’t had dinner with the family today, I went to IHOP with Lizzie and Jenny instead. Lizzie told me all about why she is going home soon and I feel so sorry for her. Being accused of stealing from the LCC? I have a hard time believing that our LCC is like this horrible person Lizzie describes her as, because she is really sweet to me. But I still feel very sorry for her. She went here four months ago with dreams of experiencing a lot of new things and having the year of her life.  I wish all au pairs could have it as good as I have it! I love my new life here! (And I will love it more when I don’t have to wear a hoodie and jeans everyday)

We had a really nice evening together and I tried to teach them some Swedish. They think Swedish is awesome and love when I speak it. But I don’t understand why everyone who doesn’t have Swedish as their native language have such a difficulty with pronunciation, haha! It’s fun though and they could say ”Hi! My name is ….. and I am twentyseven/twentyfive years old!” (Hej! Jag heter …. Och jag är tjugosju/tjugofem år!) pretty good at the end of our evening.

I’m gonna miss them both (Jenny is going home to Colombia in about two weeks too because of bad conditions in her host home). But I will see Lizzie at least one more time before she goes home, to say goodbye. It’s too bad when I just started to get to know them…

And now it’s time for me to say goodnight!

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This weekend has been really boring. I’ve asked around but nobody had time to hang out. So I’ve been by myself in this big house all weekend. I’ve been at the gym both yesterday and today and yesterday I was outside in the backyard for an hour and a half. I tried to go to the beach today, but when I got there, after I bought a milkshake at Starbucks, it was cloudy, windy and cold. So I went home again. Sat in the yard for half an hour till my spot got shadowed by the big palm trees at 3pm. Rest of the day I sat in my room, uploading photos on facebook and put together an extra day at the gym if I feel like it some weeks.

I learned today that Lizzie is going home. I don’t know when but I really hope we can hang out at least one last time before she goes. But she is hard to reach…

I decided to skip my LCC meeeting next weekend and go with three girls to Los Angeles! We are gonna do they same things I did when I was there last weekend, but I think it will be fun anyway! And a girls night out on Saturday would have been really fun! And on Sunday is the Oscars!

Not every weekend can be all super fun and exciting. I mean, this is my new life, I’m gonna be here for a year, everything can’t be new and fun. And it wasn’t all bad, I’ve read a lot!

Pelicans flying by!

Today’s big thing was that I bought a ticket to Swedish House Mafia in LA on March 9th! $200, but I think it’s gonna be worth it! A Swedish au pair who arrived here with me and who’s living in San Fransisco is going and we are gonna meet there. I also think three Swedish au pairs from here are gonna go with me. It’s going to be amazing!!

It feels like I’m throwing money all around me. But I mean, you can’t do these things in Sweden and I am here to experience things so I think it’s okay! As long as I get to see Hawaii and Florida, Las Vegas, Grand Canyon and everything here in California; like Six Flags, Los Angeles, San Fransisco, San Diego Zoo, Sea World and perhaps Disneyland. This is really going to be an eventful year! I really hope I can get a job when I get home, I have a feeling that I will be kinda broke…

I didn’t meet with the new au pair today, her H-parents asked her if she could work in the very last minute. So I went to the gym and when I got home I took my book and sat in the garden and read for one and a half hour. It was really warm today, about 80 F!

After that I didn’t do much, sat by the computer and cleaned my desk which has already become full of stuff. At 6pm my H-parents went to the movies to see the new Die Hard movie. So I had to work tonight, but I didn’t mind. We had a very nice evening together with fish tacos from Rubios and Despicable Me. I had to put hem to bed but that was no problem at all.

And now I’m gonna put myself to bed! Good night!

I enrolled at University of California San Diego Extension today! On April 3rd and every Wednesday for the next nine weeks I will be taking a class called Advanced Pronunciation & Fluency. I hope that will take away my Swedish accent. Oh, this is so exciting! The best part is that I don’t have to pay the $300 fee, because my H-parents will give me $500 for studies this year! Unfortunately my next course will cost about $400 and I have to pay the extra 200… But on the other hand, I learned today that I probably will be credited for that course at Chalmers next year. 3 credits is approximately 80 hours of work, including 27 inclass hours. I hope that equals to a 7,5hp course in Sweden! I won’t get answers from Chalmers until next week. But I’m crossing my fingers! It would be so awesome if I could skip the Environment and Sustainable Development course! I’ve heard it’s a pain in the butt…

It was President’s Holiday today so the kids were home from school. Or at least the boy, the girl was at play practice almost all day. As usual the boy tested me almost all day. He has two personalities, one before lunch and one after. I love the one after lunch when he is all cuddly and can’t stop telling me how much he loves me. But before he is just a stubborn six year old who really gets on my nerves. I don’t know what to do, but he refuses to listen to me and tells me I’m not his mum and can’t tell him what to do. And when I try to explain what I’m doing here he just doesn’t listen. It’s a good thing he changes in the afternoon!

The moon tonight was amazing! So big and high in the sky, like a big smiley mouth. A little cloudy too, so beautiful! I don’t understand the moon though. Two days ago it was barely across the rooftops at 8pm, yesterday I didn’t see it at all and today it was really high in the sky. Weird, but oh so pretty! When I went out to buy some ice cream for myself I stopped by the side of the road and just watched the moon. It’s beautiful in Sweden too, but you can see it clearer here since there are no city lights at night!

Now I’m gonna go to bed and watch The Avengers. Tomorrow I’m gonna work out (I just haven’t had any time this week and it feels horrible) and then meet a new au pair who arrived just a week ago!

Over and out!

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This is a huge day here in the US and that really sucks. Yes, I am single and I hate V-day… I realized today that this is the first Valentine’s since I was 15 that I’m single.

My day started with the kids coming down and giving me a Valentine’s gift from the whole family, a card and a box of chocolate. Really sweet of them! The kids got their cards from me after school and they were both really happy about it! ”I think I like it too much!” the boy said.

Both the kids got lots of V-day cards at school and parents wore shirts with hearts on them and the gates to the school were decorated and stuff. I saw one boy going to school this morning with a huge bouqet with balloon flowers. Ambitious!

It was an okay day though, wasn’t as tired as I was afraid I would be after getting home at midnight yesterday. The funniest thing today was when I opened the garage, from the inside, when I was going to school to pick the boy up. When I opened Star Wars music started playing (Darth Vader music). WTF?! Across the street were some kids playing music. That was so crazy!!

Now I’m gonna go to bed, have to catch up on some sleep!

My Valentine’s gift I got from the family!

Star Wars music from across the street. Wonder if they planned on starting playing when I opened the garage door. Haha!

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I’ve been listening to In Flames since I was 14. They are one of my favorite bands of all time. They are from my hometown in Sweden and I’ve never seen them live. It was really about time!

The whole night was amazing. It would have been more fun if someone was there with me, but I am so glad I bought that ticket and pulled myself together and drove to San Diego downtown. I had to work until one of the parents got home which was at six. I didn’t leave until 20min later. I’ve never heard Battlecross or All Shall Perish so I didn’t mind missing them and I didn’t want to be rude and wait at the door as soon as they got home.

I find a good parking spot very close to House of Blues, just a block away. When I got there, around 7:30pm, All Shall Perish just started playing. They were pretty okay. And the singer looked like a small Hagrid from Harry Potter. So I thought the next band playing was Battlecross because concerts are always delayed. This is kind of embarrasing, but I’m gonna write it anyway. The first song was really good and I recognized the style of it. The next song I really really recognized and even could the lyrics to. ”Are Battlecross a cover band?” And then I realized it was Demon Hunter. So embarrasing… To my defense I haven’t listened at Demon Hunter’s latest album or In Flames’ two latest albums at all.

The best song was Collapsing. It was awesome even if Björn Strid from Soilwork didn’t sing it.

A long wait and then finally the headline, In Flames! It’s too bad it was a long time ago I listened to them. But I recognized most songs and it was so awesome! Last night made me feel proud to be Swedish. I don’t have any more words for it, it was a dream come true!

The only bad thing was that they didn’t play any of my favorite songs, Trigger or Free Fall.

Yesterday was awesome and a really good add to my USA-memory-box!

House of Blues San Diego.

All Shall Perish, aka “Mini-Hagrid”.

DEMON HUNTER!

IN FLAMES!!

Anders Fridén and Don with the tiny boner, even if he was a girl.

In the afternoon I thought I could drive to the nearest Donkin’ Donuts and buy some to the kids. I had my GPS but I couldn’t find it. I ended up at a military base north of here and talked with US Marines about how lost I was and that I was looking for Donkin’ Donuts. That was a crazy adventure. So instead we went to Extreme Frozen Yoghurt. My first time and definitely not the last. Oh my god how delicious! Before that I also ate a semla. I didn’t think you could get one of those here in the US. So now I  don’t have to bake tomorrow.

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I just got home from an awesome evening in San Diego downtown. I’ve finally seen In Flames live! But I’m way too tired to write about it tonight…

Godnatt!

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It’s seriously not fun making dinner when the boy says straight out that he doesn’t like it. Today I thought my chicken and bacon stew was really good. I try to not care, but it’s not fun doing something that isn’t appreciated by the persons you spend all your days with. The parents like it, but it kind of doesn’t matter for me.

After dinner my host dad said that maybe I should find some au pairs nearby to hang out with. I don’t mind being on my own in my room after dinner but they are afraid that I’m showing signs of homesickness I guess. But that’s not it. I just don’t have the energy to do something special everyday! But it would have been fun to have some friends closer.

I went to the gym because I didn’t have time in the afternoon when I went Valentine card shopping for the kids. I think I found two cute ones. There were so many cards! So I picked the first two best and then went home sleeping the rest of the afternoon. I don’t understand why I’m so tired all the time. I haven’t had any sleeping problems the last week.

This wasn’t a fun post… But those days exist too (tomorrow won’t be one of them!). So I’m gonna end with something nice and then go to sleep! When I drove to the gym at 8pm I saw the most amazing moon I’ve ever seen! It was new moon, it was all orange-red, hung really low in the sky and was so big! It’s to bad my camera sucks.

Desert after lunch. It’s nice to be able to eat berries all year round. These strawberries were delicious!

A red new moon. It’s fun that it’s upside down!

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I just paid for a ticket to In Flames/Demon Hunter in San Diego this Wednesday! Oh my god!! I can’t believe it took me like 7 years to finally see In Flames live. And they are from the same city as me… It’s gonna be so amazing, I can’t wait!

The only problem is that the concert starts at 6pm, and I don’t get off work until 6:30 normally. But I think I can get off a little earlier and I’ve already changed my dinner evening till tomorrow instead. Don’t know what to do though…

There are two more bands playing and I really hope they get on before Demon Hunter and In Flames. Concerts are always delayed, but I want to make sure that I get to see two of my favorite bands! And I can’t believe it only costs me $35!

I will get my ticket at the event, and I hope I will still get it even if I’m gonna be late, I will cross my fingers!

Another upcoming event of mine is probably Coachella! Yesterday I learned that Lizzie has a ticket with a car camping spot that she can’t use. A friend from Chalmers is going that same week so I asked my host parents this evening if I could go. They said yes! The only thing is that I have to work on Friday and Monday, and the festival is Friday April 19th to Sunday April 21th. Sunday, no problem, I will just get home in the middle of the night, and get up to work as usual and then sleep in the day. But on Friday it’s a little bit more difficult. They said that maybe I could get off work at 4pm instead of 6pm. I will probably miss one of the bands I really want to see, Of Monsters and Men. But what the heck. It will be awesome anyway!

I’ve never been to a camping festival before so this will definitely be a new experience. It’s one thing I didn’t have on my bucket list before, but now I’m so excited!

$300 for the whole thing and about $60 for a rental car. I think it’s okay!

I forgot to write about three things yesterday! First, I saw coyotes when we were going to the Griffith Observatory. It looked like they were posing when we took photos of them. Second, I’ve started a new registration plate game. I’m gonna write down every different state plate I see here in Cali. So far (since Saturday), I’ve seen 15 including California! I’ve even seen Alaska!! Third, when we just had parked in LA downtown yesterday we ran into four young people, two of them I recognized from au pair training school. How big are the odds of running into other au pairs in the middle of Los Angeles?!

This morning I was super tired and lately the boy has been very cranky in the mornings and I hate it. That’s the only thing I hate about my job right now. He refuses to listen to me, he gets angry with me for no reason almost every morning… It’s horrible. But when I was making lunch he was in a much better mood and said that he was a very forgiving person. Maybe that was not the word. Bu the easily change his mind anyway.

In the afternoon he is the cuddliest kid ever. He is like a new person. Today we wrote a wish list for them both on Dunkin’ Donuts. I’m going there on Wednesday to bring something back for them. I have to take the freeway to get there and I’m not allowed to have the kids in the car while I’m on the freeway so.

When the boy came down to say good night he gave me two drawings. He’s so cute (almost always)!

This is me and the boy. I am the one saying love and wearing big earrings. He is the one thinking about Lego Star Wars! Haha!

This is a gorilla. And he is super angry because someone stole all his bananas!